I'm not going to get stuck, lingering, walking slowly behind you and those people in our department whom I'm not acquainted with, for the remotest possibility that you'll turn back to look in my direction while I direct my attention to the sun playing with clouds and greenery.
There's something sinister abt you. If I'm ever good enough in your cold assessment, I know you'll move on to the next in due time. I won't ever settle for someone settling for me.

On my way back today
a woman was loading or offloading some computer chairs from a truck. two guys stopped and volunteered right away. I am so impressed with such kindness/spontaneous manliness. Good thing I don't know them, if not I'll have no end admiring them.